2025

June 2025

Weather data is added at the end of the month.

June 12th, 2025

I made a SpaceHey because people would not shut up about it. It was fun for a couple of hours, but then I got bored and overwhelmed by the sheer amoung of teenagers on it. While I'm not blaming them for being like 14 and all, being subjected to the opinions of someone who's biggest gripe is the lack of freebies in life before they even have to pay taxes feels criminal at the rotting age of 26. It's more in line with my NekoWeb's theme and I'm completely harassable there. That being said, I also managed to bridge a gap I've been grappling with for a long while. If it gives someone an ounce of insight and enough pity to leave me alone when I go a little crazy, then the minimal risk is sorta worth it. If it comes back to bite me, that's going to absolutely suck.

June 9th, 2025

I've started learning Japanese. It's something I've tried before but didn't because I had a bad hullicinatory experience when I accidentally overdosed on sleep aids (do not take anything while mentally impaired by exhaustion, kids). Spiders quizzed me and threatened to kill me for being wrong, wild but nothing too crazy. I'm picking up on the old concepts pretty fast because they're not new-new to me and I failed to also learn to other languages I set out to speak (Korean and Russian) due to a lack of continued interest on top of learning Spanish like every high schooler who doesn't have the luxury of choosing between that and French. I have gotten pretty good at studying and learning languages up to a certain point. It's a skill all on its own, and while I can boast it, it's only because of my continued dumbassery. Once I get past a certain threshold, that it. I'll be a mumbling word fumbling idiot just like anyone else.

June 4th, 2025

I've started making less entries and filling my time with archiving, slight overindulging, and sorta dealing with myself. When I said I deleted all my flighty, chaotic entries for being crazy, I meant it. It's not normal for me to post more than one entry every so often and a sign I am spiralling if I do. Even at the end of it, when I hit rock bottom, I tend to flail emotionally and verbally. Hence why I swung at MP100 like that. I don't think I deserved to catch a bunch of strays like that, but I did and let it ruin everything. I am twenty six and honestly need to shut up at this point about it, but good luck convincing me to do that when all I want is to pick a fight. I don't even listen to myself.

On the topic of creative content, I guess I started drawing again. It has been a small eternity and oh man does it hurt to be faced with the consequence of not actually drawing anything since January, but it's also compounded by the fact I hurt my wrist so bad that I don't think I'll ever get back to where I'd been in some ways. I still want to, though, because as much as I hate art, it is probably one of the few ways I can feel something human. It's hard to explain without overexplaining what an absolute tragedy my relationship with art is.

Anyways, the piece I did for the first time in forever! Please keep in mind I haven't drawn in literal months, my hand is fucked, and I'm using free FireAlpaca instead of ClipStudio Pro!



For those who recognize it: No You Do Not!